Friday, March 10, 2006
Getting Rid of the Aftertaste
Mood:
Few days later since that selfish brat insulted and damaged my pride, I still have to recover from her lousy schemes... I don't know if that childish brat is doing things intentionally just to dismay me and put all my efforts futile. I am partially OK now, just getting rid of the aftertaste that she left behind. It has be almost been four months since she ignore my efforts. Acting like she saw nothing about the things I have done not just for her, but for the whole TRC cosplay group. I felt that I have been used by some of the members. I still couldn't find it forgivable. Now I have to let go of it.
I need a new life.
The other day, I have read a blog from friend and criticized my actions. I felt like I have been punched straight to the stomach. I immediately called him confirming the actions I have done and apologizing "What have I done wrong to you? Do you have any grudges against me?" He explained that he can't look after us anymore because of of his job as a marshall, and he don't have anything against me. But he advised me not to destroy the family our friends brought together. That was the Gamer Clan. I have finally realize my mistakes. All of these days, I have thought of myself as an antagonist. An Enmity that will wreak havoc everything. I have even compared myself to the blacklisted people from the community. And I must not barge in in other people's affair, and even think of the past things that some evil people have done to me. I must move on. And that what I am doing right now. Thanks to him, I felt unburndened. I realized my flaws. I will be perfect someday, I will be a god. I have to change my sigs in GC too, they have another malicious meanings kasi eh. Pilyo ko talaga...
Yesterday, I have began lookng for a job. Using a number from Jobstreet.com, seaching for a vacant graphics artist position, I dialled the number and able to find the location accessibly. It was located near Shawn's place at the Welcome Rotonda. After the interview and an hour of enhancing the image of a local sexy star, the head artist asked me how much the salary I want, stating the fact that I came from the distant Antipolo. I let him choose and told me that they will call me, because they are still looking and if they have chosen me, then that would be find. I hope luck is on my side, regardless of my belief in destiny.
Afterwards, I met up with Shiela and Nash near Nash's school along the Quezon Ave. And I found out that Nash is alrady pissed of with Shiela by making herself heard in peculiar way (nagpaparinig). And always saying that "Oh! Tessa's cute" or "Oh! Elise is cute!". Nash finally blows up, "How could you compare me to those worthless girls?" Then after sending Nash home, I talked to Shiela about the stuff she ought to know. I told her that if she continues to stay like that she would end up hurting herself. Her problem is that she couldn't say what's inside her mind, fearing that she might hurt others. I have just gotten over that thing long time ago, kaya ang ang kapal ng mukha ko eh. After spending time in Intramuros, I got home, tired and worn from the muscle pains. How about doing 25 chest push ups and 50 crunches since the other day? They are still aching until today. Ugh...
Tommorow, another day of Sabath. Bloody Sabath. Whatever. That childish brat might show up. I'll ignore her. I need to control my damn temperament too.
6:51 PM ...another day has ended.
Name: Fuketsu Murasaki
Alias: Tainted Purple, TP, Satanic Priestess, Maki, Pendrille Walpurgis de Faux
Age: 23 and rising
Birthdate: 101084
Religion: Ideal Christianity
Nationality: None Specified
Description: Visual Artist, CG Artist, Song Writer, Musician, Novelist. Psychotic, Sarcastic, Ego Tripping, Temperemental, Foolish, Wants to rule the World.
Horror, Scifi, Adventure movies; Sour, Sweet foods. Arcade Simulation and Online gaming. Artworks. Kind, Understanding people.
Annoying, Arrogant, Selfish, Sinister, Numb, Unfaithful jerks.
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