Thursday, March 16, 2006
Mad Season
Mood:
I feel stupid - but I know it won't last for long
I've been guessing - I coulda been guessin' wrong
You don't know me now
I kinda thought that you should somehow
Does that whole mad season got ya down...
So why ya gotta stand there
Looking like the answer now
It seems to me - you'd come around
I need you now
Do you think you can cope
You figured me out - I'm lost and I'm hopeless
Bleeding and broken - though
I've never spoken
I come undone - in this mad season
I think I have been mad already in the past days. Reminds me of a classic Matchbox 20 hit by Rob Thomas, one of my fave vocalist. Mad Season, huh? I am mad indeed...
Last Sabbath, I have been to Mega. I looked for my friends but they are not at the usual spot, the food court. What cross upon me is the Goth Girl Ace. She told me that they are at Time Zone, but as I arrive, they are not even there. Luckily, I met up with the GC's Christ Roy with Jet and told me that they are at KFC upstairs the second floor. Noel was celebrating his Birth Day by treating everyone chicken steaks, which I consider everyone's fave. As I approach them, that childish brat was visible from the door with her red-haired boy friend. She was the one of the first person to greet me, but I just ignored her. Still getting rid of the aftertaste she have left behind a week ago. Then I sat beside in front of Jade. Almost everyone was there. Noel handed me my chicken steak but I was about to refuse. I was on a hurry. But he insisted me to eat it for him because of his birth day. So I devoured it immediately. Kinori also set foot inside KFC and handed me her debts of PHP 200.00. I was so happy and she also handed me my High Priest costume. Then afterwards, I left without telling the majority.
I head to Nash's school and met up with her. Together with Ashley we have gone to Shawn's place and hang out with him, with Ivan and Vincent. After the two girls left and after Shawn surfed the net, he sent me home, for he sees that I was tired already.
Manic Monday, I feel very stupid enough, as I ask a friend if she knows how to kiss and I asks her if I could give a try. At first she refused but the second time she allowed me. After looking for a place, we began kissing. Damn. I don't know if I was possessed by an incubus but my hand have gone anywhere else. After the trick, I apologize to her but she said it was OK. I feel so guilty at that time. Later in the night, while we were treking a park, I asks her if she could be my girlfriend. She told me it was OK. We have no special reason why we have gone in this relationship. I don't even feel a single heartbeat towards her. Maybe I could use this in the future, as I know it will unfold something for her. But still a question is lingering inside my head: Why would I ask someone to become my girlfriends without feeling anything from her? Maybe I should hold on till we met and end it. Or do must I?
Maybe it's just my libido rush...
Currently I am on marathon mode in watching Trinity Blood. I need to get the information about the characters that I could use in the future. My dad always scrutinize my way of using his office laptop. If we have a PC at home, probably every task of mine is done already...
Speaking of madness. Did you know that GMA-7 will air Crhno Crusade? Damn, JV always tells me that anime talks about the dominance of (the Christian concept of) demons and blasphemies towards the Vatican or even at 'god'. I myself is a Satanist but I would not even dare to disrespect other people's belief. But they would air an antichristian anime at an already morally corrupted, disrupted value, catholic country? And they are claiming themselves a Christian too... now who am I to believe in? JV also told me that there is another way to make it sanitize, and that is to change the name of 'god' or changing the theme. The problem is it would remove the real essence of the anime. Sigh. I really hate that TV station, and for those peeps out there, you can check my journals in Deviant Art or just right straight here. You can google my whole journal page in DA to see some fragments of my rants against them. After that, be enlighten with my mental anal probing, tee-hee.
Hey don't get me wrong. I am a Satanist myself and I am just concern with the 'Christian' peeps out there. I still respect you guys. Just telling off what is my opinion. Go ahead sue me.
Sigh... I wonder if I could go this Sabbath at PUP. Nash and a lot of others expected me to go there. I need two hundered bucks and I am OK. Damn entrance fees...
3:58 PM ...another day has ended.
Name: Fuketsu Murasaki
Alias: Tainted Purple, TP, Satanic Priestess, Maki, Pendrille Walpurgis de Faux
Age: 23 and rising
Birthdate: 101084
Religion: Ideal Christianity
Nationality: None Specified
Description: Visual Artist, CG Artist, Song Writer, Musician, Novelist. Psychotic, Sarcastic, Ego Tripping, Temperemental, Foolish, Wants to rule the World.
Horror, Scifi, Adventure movies; Sour, Sweet foods. Arcade Simulation and Online gaming. Artworks. Kind, Understanding people.
Annoying, Arrogant, Selfish, Sinister, Numb, Unfaithful jerks.
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