Saturday, April 08, 2006
Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Mood:
I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know were it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
It was Thursday, the sky was mediocre; dark, and damp with the cinder clouds around the skies. It was so promising that I would finally be staying in Shiela’s place so I have packed up every thing I need, just for days. With the Php 200.00 provided I walk alone. Nash was texting me to we could meet at Robinsons’ Place Ermita. As I meet her at GBOX, she told me that Shiela and her brother was not around, even at the event where an uprising Reggae band Brownmen All Stars performed. Too bad, we have to search for them. Her mom was calling her because it’s getting late, she needs to go home. But where’s her bro? He’s with Shiela probably, and I need to meet up with her, because my mom knows that I am away and won’t be probably come home for days, keeping in mind that Shiela has given me a stay-in job at her place. As we part ways I head straight to Raymond’s place. I thought he knows where her place was, but I was mistaken. He doesn’t know where her place was though. So I spend some other time talking… still texting Shiela and hoping she would come there to fetch me up. But hours come and more hours pass by. But dreaded news came as I reload my cellphone account. She said she was on Naga, Bicol. What? That’s ridiculous. I thought she has already gone there, and will never to return. She left me hanging in the air for the first time. She was at Sucat, and was about to leave. Good thing I never blow up and I exhaled deeply. I cannot even stay at Raymond’s place because his cousins were staying there and I won’t have a place. I have contacted several friends but they give negative. So I have no choice. I walked alone, with the rain showered my frustrations again. I reach for small huts at the parks in Liwasan, just in front of Manila Post Office Building in Lawton. I stayed there and I sleep along with the rain sprinkling in my face and small Vampiric creatures called mosquitoes to boot, feeding them with my blood as they bite my arms gently.
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone
I can’t sleep!! This is what I have screaming inside my head as I couldn’t bear the pain and the coldness I am experiencing. I have been homeless for a day. The moon was gazing behind the dark clouds. Then I saw crews from ABS-CBN assembling a stage for another Pinoy Big Brother Celebrity Edition gimmick at the said Post Office. People around me have their own huts. There was this couple whom the guy was really concern about his girl. Probably they both runaway form the clutches of their parents; a forbidden love. Some runaway peeps have their own huts and some shared them with another homeless. The rain stopped and it showered again its grace. As I felt I was not sleepy, I stand up and take a walk to the famous Luneta Park. There, our lame National Hero Jose Rizal was executed. It took me thirty minutes to get there by walking. It really consumes a lot of time. I took a sit at one of the benches and tried to sleep. But still I couldn’t. I picked up my cellphone and played some games. Then a suspicious guy in red approached me, asking for help. I denied him I take a walk again, this time near the Manila Bay. Walking takes a lot of time so I take advantage of it. I will wait for Nash to wake up so I can come over to her place. Her mother will leave soon. I just treated it a small walk in the park as I head to the Bay. Early birds doing a Tae Bo, Chinese Tai Chi and kids with their parents playing Badminton was the attraction. There where also some crab catchers too. I stayed there until eight in the morning. Nash has given me a go signal.
Yeah, now I have place where I can stay. After some talk, I sleep in her cozy bed at the living room. She wake me up at noon and invited me to eat dinner. As we talk, I have heard from her bro that Shiela’s still here. What the fuck. That’s all I can say. I thought she was… nevermind. She’s making a stir. Nash was also surprised. Then she ordered me follow her bro. So I did, just to catch her. I wonder what will be her alibi. Nash and I hide at the laundry area then we wait. Of course, Shiela was stunned to see me alive and well. Damn her, but I still keeping my cool. Now I talked to her and as I expected she has her alibi. Now I told her about prioritizing. And now she said that I wasn’t able to stay in her place for the mean time unlike she promised me. Now we have to find somewhere else. We went to Delpan where her friend lives, his uncle but the consequences were unstable. I was very hungry by that time. She offered me to come with her in Bulacan. Almost a province. We took a ride to Baliwag and I have set my foot on another distant land like anywhere else. We stayed on her aunt’s house where the lifestyle is not that primitive. Finally I could rest, in spite of hunger.
I walk alone I walk alone
I walk alone and I walk a-
We woke up the next day. It was the day of Sabbath. It was very early so I could grip a cup of coffee in my worn out hands. After devouring the prepared meal we immediately set ourselves to journey back to civilization. We parted in Monumento and I hurried to Megamall.
Just in time. I came in Megamall by noon. Almost everyone was there, waiting for the others to show up. There would be a swimming in Noey’s place. I remembered I have contacted Mark to come with us, and it seems that he’s well welcomed. Now as we were completed, we ride her van with her and gone to her place. The others will soon follow up. Noey was very accommodating. She treated us very nice as some of the peeps jumped of the Pool. Others were playing Magic: The Gathering card game while the others played Tekken 5 and set their fingers with the Organ. It was fun, fun until the very night. Radius talked to everyone of us about a special matter that I won’t mention due to security reasons. But the fate of GC relies on it. The night was finally over.
I went the Galas Bois whom would come to Aaron’s place. I thought that there would be some drinking, but I was mistaken. The place should be tight shut and most of us where penniless. The truth was I shouldn’t be with them. The car’s full but still I managed to come with them. If I would come home now, my parent’s would realize that I am bluffing about the job Shiela offered. So by hook or by crook I must go with them. The problem is, I should have said it before to the last minute, not at the time of exact departure. Karl and Yui sermons me about it. They even got Shawn with it, inviting a drink without the owner of the place consent. I treated it as a fatal mistake, never to be done again. Anyways, what done is done. Aaron treats us to some anime DVD watch then finally he offered us to watch hentai. Of course we agree. He inserted Darling and we get the most out of it. It was hilarious. But still I would never be like Markel… how about talking to a girl at twilight while watching hentai with the sounds of moaning girls in the background? Definitely I would be ashamed. That is why we idolized Markel that much during that whole day. IDOL KITA MARKEL!! DI KO KAYA ANG GINAGAWA MO!! ASTIG KA!! We finished the whole four episodes DVD when others were sleepy. But still Karl didn’t get enough. Me, with Karl, Jacob and Markel watched Kimi Ga Nozomu Eien, an animated drama that reached the top charts as one of the best anime. I have an idea about the show, Mitsuki is a bitch. That’s right. She is. Just watch it. It gives me an aftershock for two days while I don’t know if Karl was over with it. The maximum time of the shock was a week according to Jacob. The drama was very intense that I have run emotional for two days. We finished only the half of spindle and finally hit on the bed for rest. Before I have received a text message that made my inner self panic. Shiela was on a trip to Naga and still keep on telling me that it is so very important. What the fuck? What’s important with tailing around your teacher whom you are infatuated with? Still keeping my cool, she left me hanging again for the second time. I thought she would accommodate me starting Monday. And now she wants me to make an explanation for my parents that I won’t be able to stay in her place, upon my parent’s knowledge that she offered me a stay-in job? Ridiculous again. She’s not here, she said. She will be gone for two weeks. Duh.
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Till then I'll walk alone
Ah..ah..
Ah, another morning was given to us as a blessing by my lord, Shaytan. I was so glad I’m still alive. Still aiming to finish the whole spindle of Kimi Ga Nozomu Eien, we first were invited to eat for breakfast finally. Then we hit the show. But that’s not enough. Yui even ask for another show, and that’s another two hentai DVDs. Oh my… YUI TIGANG KA!! I hilariously made fun of him. I wonder what got him and drives him to watch more… well for me, at least I am watching something. After some few hours spent, we separated tracks and head home. Back to Hades.
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And where I walk alone
Now, something important ran in my head that I need to talk to both of the brothers. With my money left, I have gone to Galas and meet up with them. Unfortunately, they were not there. I have search the entire place but no trace. I have no choice but to wait for them. I stayed at an internet café and was tempted to play Warcraft III’s custom game DotA All-stars. Oh my, I am spending again… Until finally I was able to meet up with Karl and he offered me to favor, perhaps a favor that would change our lives. I accepted it even though there’s a days left. Finally we were able to meet with Shawn and Yui. Together, we spent hours of talking till dawn. Upon hearing news that many would visit them tomorrow, I decided to stay. But I don’t have a place to stay for the night. There is handy jeepneys that can a temporary refuge, but Shawn and Karl didn’t allow it. They made me stay to their place just for the night. It would be an embarrassment for them if I did not stayed with them and sacrifice myself again to mosquitoes.
Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone
Shawn woke me up. It was almost noon. The first thing I saw that day was Karl watching a new Japanese Action Series called Garo. Just like Kamen Riders, only just slightly mature in some ways. Karl keep on telling us that even the famous cosplayer like Robert Wong turned down the offer of cosplaying Garo, due to high financial requirements. As I watch the series, I finally realize why. Whew. Then Theresa came and stayed with Shawn for few hours then she left. After watching the series, we went outside and looked for Aren. It was heard that Jacob, Aaron, Luna and Kreame would come over. So we manage to wait. I was Yui, Karl and Shawn again. As night falls, there are still no signs of them. Jacob will be on Friday, and the rest I don’t know. All I know is I should go home. My parents slandered me on my phone. Even if they don’t come, it’s OK. Sabbath’s waiting though.
I walk alone I walk alone
I walk alone and I walk a-
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Till then I'll walk alone
Ah..ah..
I walk alone and I walk a-
I receive a message from Radius that he has invited me to attend a brainstorming for our Gamer Clan project. I didn’t deny it. Thursday, I met up with Shobe in SM North and she paid me Php 200.00 bucks from an in-game item I sold her in Ragnarok Online. Still not in full, but worth it. After some few talks, I left for Megamall. I never really expected that most of the would come, even Yui’s there. And the rest, yeah, present. I greeted them and the fun begins. Luna got her hair colored to blonde, Radius was with the majority brainstorming. Dej, and the rest of new faces was also there. Yui, with Jade, Luna, Liz played truth or dare. Plenty of SM Megamall scandals was captured in Noey’s cam, including mine… Jade pursues me giving me a smack that made me blushed for ages. The PPF guys Jeff, Jet, Jen and Esh were also there. Markel was missing in action. Then we played Magic: The Gathering with Roy Oman, Karl, and Uruhara. Karl borrowed a green weenie deck that was a killer. After spending some hours in Megamall, Some of us decided to part ways and went to SM North. I’m with Yui, Shawn, Tessa, Rocky and Luna. Only a few of us. Anyways, I could finally again get hold of Drummania that worth my pennies. The day was over. I’ll be saving the best for Sabbath.
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a-
And now. Another dawn of a New Sabbath. Many things will happen. Some fun, some sad and depressing. But hey shit happens. I will be expecting everyone. Till then.
Au Revior.
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Till then I'll walk alone
6:14 AM ...another day has ended.
Name: Fuketsu Murasaki
Alias: Tainted Purple, TP, Satanic Priestess, Maki, Pendrille Walpurgis de Faux
Age: 23 and rising
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