Sunday, June 15, 2008

Behind My Back Again

I haven't been with you guys but i have just heard something from a close affiliate of mine that someone was intending to ruin me in a ridiculous way. And he's doing it ever since the time he shoved my weakness and stolen my role.

I have just heard that there was a certain girl that 'looked like me' when viewed sideways. And I heard that he have said something regarding it. So what's his intention?

He want to make an ass out off me to a close friend of ours who's having a crush on her? That one day he'll wake up from a dream that she have become me?

Sometimes, I felt that I have enough if this.

11:06 PM ...another day has ended.

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Friday, May 09, 2008

Going up the Wheel

Funny it may seems, there are a lot of people whom I resentfully abandoned due to the most of them preferred a bastard-who-has-a-frat-and-is-going-to-kill-me-because-I-spread-the-rumor-that-he's-an-assholeare coming back to me with their tails wagging up. You know why?

Maybe they already found out that he's an ASSHOLE. How could I return to them when in the first place they didn't get in the middle just to negotiate why am I spreading lulz about that asshole, including the lulz he himself created when he got dump a girl he now calls her bitch like that cosplay prima donna does, soliciting sex not only just to her, but to several innocent girls around the community, even using a name of a foster friend in his own lascivious pleasure. Instead, they come to his side, and now they are coming back for my side and yet his identity has been confirmed molesting internet-ally and now that nobody's going to take an action, and now my life is threaten with his frat he may have found using off, no one's giving a fuck about me.

And now my mom's even wants me dead due to her negativities and blaming us the bankruptcy of her business.

A lot of them, suddenly in an instant, having thought of adding me in multiply and in the dreaded YM where I recieve that asshole's death threat in the day of my birthday. How can I welcome them back? I hate seeing them last Ozine Fest '08 and yet I say I'm fine?

NANGDIDIRI AKO SA SARILI KO KASI PAKIRAMDAM KO ANG PLASTIK KO TULAD NILA!!

I hated myself because I felt like a faker like them!!

Anyways, nothing gonna change by whining in this blog, I just need to take some of these hatred. The internet was created by this manner, right?

And oh yeah BTW, Have you watch "Kaputol ng Isang Awit" in GMA-7 aired during the afternoon? I have just noticed something. The name of the bullied protagonist is Sarah Montessa and the loatsome antagonist is Joanna. It just made a sense, although the girl with pseudo-same name as the protagonist in the show actually bashing the other girl with the same name as the show's antagonist.

Just made sense at all...

Must made this fucking account active again...

6:05 PM ...another day has ended.

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Thursday, September 13, 2007

The Greatest of All Sins Ever Told

How many types of deadly sins are there created by the Christian scholars almost a millenium ago? There where seven. These where the infamous Seven Cardinal/Deadly Sins, each of it has the attribute to lead men into their own downfall by using the serpent's primary arsenal, temptation.

A friend of mine told me that upon those Seven Sins, all of them has a single origin even a gradeschooler could ever discover for themselves while attending Good Morals and Right Conduct subject.

Selfishness.

Selfishness is not a threat, but upon its wings, the Seven Sins sprouted. How? Let me demonstrate.

Sin: Sloth

Sloth's relation to selfishness is very obvious. You can't seize the day for yourself so you let others do it. You are lazy even to lift your finger, feed yourself. It is not a fact that the animal sloth is named after such because of its so slow movements. A sloth means a couch potato who waits for graces to come without giving an effort. Selfish.

Sin: Gluttony

You want to eat too much. You want all the food you can indulge right inside your stomach. Gluttony is directly related to Greed/Avarice but in the but in the gourmet aspect. It is the winner takes all food version. It is related to selfishness in the sense that you want all the food for your own bottomless stomach. Selfishness.

Sin: Envy

You want all the attention in the world. You are an attention whore. And you want that particular anything that belong to someone else and will do anything to have it for yourself, may it be a replica or the same thing. Still selfishness.

Sin: Wrath

You want to kick someone's ass. You want to destroy, you want to hurt your enemy so bad because you want to get even with them. Why are you mad? Can't have enough of Anger Management 101? Still a part of a man's selfish reasons.

Sin: Lust

You want to have sex to every girl you want to have your dick on. Or let's put it this way, you want all the girls in the world for yourself. You gain strong sense of machismo pleasure for every woman you screw. Still doing it for your own self satisfaction. Slefishness.

Sin: Greed

You want to get rich, so you are temped to steal. You want all the money in the world so bad to satisfy your vices. Cars, women, drugs... all of them for your own. Enough said. Selfishness.

Sin: Pride

Small but terrible, Pride is the most deadly. It is the sin that caused the light bearer to plunged down here on earth to be tied on judgement day. You can't to do a certain thing just because of your pride, even a very small, simple one that have always cause an arguement. Still because of man's selfish reasons.

As a conclusion, all of the Seven Deadly Sins are directlyrelated to a very small, gradeschool word called selfishness. Because mankind is inept in self-preserverance, God send his own Son to wash it all away. But still, mankind is an easy prey for a characteristics that have existed on animals called insticts. To gain salvation, man must overcome instincts with reasons, and the right path to God.

I am but a fool who don't have any authority to preach.

But I will leave you a word: Is is selfish to truly love someone, but still gaining pleasure out of it that satisfies yourself?

The answer is yours to find out.

2:31 AM ...another day has ended.

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Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Thanatos

"Say, have you realized how insignificant your existence is on this little planet?"

I have found this line while reading a print out of 'The Melacholies of Haruhi Suzumiya'. I pondered about myself. I even asked myself why am I living here on Earth. Wait a minute? How can I be sure that I don't what to die?

After realizing how bored I am, I also realize how unworthy I am for the most. I have to accept the facts that I have accomplished something. Yeah, I ain't stopping doing accomplishments. But sometimes I may have done something wrong. In an instant, my good intentions were run over by a single second of mistakes. I may look like a clown who just placed his lipstick on a wrong place. It was condemnable. Yeah right, I am not significant either. So why I must spend my lifetime doing the same mistakes again even though I tried so hard to become better. "No one understand how I feel!!' becomes a cliche. In the end, I am the only one who's bitter, biting his thumbnails like L does.It seems like I have suffered enough euthanasia, crawling fire ants biting my toes and my legs, and a word most feared of the most, of such as Death, serves as a solitary medicine. An only cure for the tormented patient.

"I have enough of the same cycles everyday! Kill me now!!"

It seems like the combined forces of of the different versions of the urban legend song called Gloomy Sunday doens't have an effect either.If such things such as Deathnote exist, I could have asked Ryuk to have my name written on it. Or ask Ichigo and his gang of Shinigamis to cut my head off, in Bankai mode.I never knew that I was suicidal. But I don't have any choice.

For me, I see Death as a awesome once-in-a-lifetime experience. an enigmatic angel of salvation that would decapitate your pitiful soul and break free from the cruelty of the world. It would be fun to feel the presence of those people who loathe you before when you are still living and would attend your funeral just for some freebies. I was wondering how many people would be there when I die. I think they won't even reach the total numbers of your fingers from head to toe. But most probably not, because the fact is, you would only be remembered, when you die. Sounds fun to gather all your so called friends and nemesis in one setting, lamenting for your departure. But when you are still alive, insults and enless sarcasms that you hope that you wouldn't hear as long as you die.
Now here Death enters the picture.

Hell Girl seems to be a valkyrie that will help me thrive in the halls of Valhalla. If Sasuke's my bestfriend, I'd like to grant him the power of Magekyo. I should have been in the place of Kaoru Nagisa instead of him in the hands of Eva-01. I'll be resting in peace in the Grave of the Fireflies.

Least explain it, I'd be better off Dead. The world would be a better place without my presence anyway.

I have written the all my sins, not tragedies in the course of history. This is not even panicking at the disco or something. I guess that's good enough.

3:30 PM ...another day has ended.

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Monday, April 30, 2007

Ang Kapangyarihan ng Media

Kung ano ba ang nakikita mo sa TV, sila lang ba ang sikat? Ano ba talaga ang kapangyarihan ng media?

Advertising. Dito kumukuha ng lakas ang mga TV networks na puhunan, sa dami ng nagpapaadvertise sa kanila. Syempre mas mataas na ratings mas malaking chance. Kaya yung mga TV networks kanya kanyang raket (lalo na yung isa dyan na pinagduduldulan nila sa mukha ng masa na sikat sila sa pamamagitan ng logo nilang halos 3/4 ng TV screens niyo) para makahikayat o mang brainwash. Kahit sa billboards, sticker ng MRT, poster o sa mismong TV lang. Syempre, kung sino ang madalas nakikita ng madla yun ang tatangkilikin. And sometimes I ponder about the most of us Filipinos patronize lame programs na wala namang kalatoy latoy kundi sa drama, o kung hindi kabastusan. Kung ano ang nakikita natin na suot ng mga artista, yung mga gupit nila, yun yung ginagaya o pinapauso.

Politics: Panahon na naman ng eleksyon. Syempre may mga delegado na sumikat sa pamamagitan ng media na nangaling lang mula sa pagiging druglord o kaya naman boxing champ. Naexpose sa TV, sikat. Iboboto na ang mga yan kasi nakita na ng madla, ni hindi nga natin talaga kinikilatis kung akma nga sila sa position na tinatakbuhan nila.

Sabi nga ng professor ko dati, "Advertising is a best form of lying." Di nga siya nagkamali. Nalala ko rin yung pelikulang Megiddo kung saan tinake advanatage ng nakakatandang kapatid na Stone ang kapangyarihan ng media gamit ang TV na ang youger brother niya ang pumatay sa ama nila, ngunit sa katotohanan ay siya ang may sala.Basta sa akin lang, wag kayong magpapaloko sa mga nakikita niyo.

12:54 AM ...another day has ended.

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