Monday, July 24, 2006
The Seven Vials
Mood: 
First Vial:
I was submitting my blog with Roy, Ric and VJ. Then that weekend was my first Antonov Session attended and accidentally I got myself a hideous girlfriend whom I accepted as a whole at the dawn of the day right after the Sabbath.
Second Vial:
The 4th TOYCON was held at Megamall this Sabbath and I don again the High Priestess outfit from Ragnarok Online. There were no drinking spree sessions for the event takes place for two days. The second day I was on Dearka Elthman outfit but unfortunately I never make it up for registration. My bad.
Third Vial:
Just a plain EB on that Sabbath. Nothing special. We head directly to Ric’s place to hang out for the day. It was rainy the next day. That very Monday, VJ let me stay to his place. I appreciate it a lot.
Fourth Vial:
The Pinoycosplay Picnic was held during this Sabbath at the side of Mall of Asia at the side of the Manila bay. The weather wasn’t that fine and it rained hard. But as the rain stops, the sun gives us the go signal to continue the picnic. And right after the picnic, we were invited by Mr. Fart the Photographer to his place to hang out. The next day I left earlier than the rest for the Kujuu Muttsu film shooting, having fun with new found friends. An assassin turned gay?
Fifth Vial:
It was J-Music Fuzion this Sabbath. I heard a lot of futile and potential J-Rockers. Then right after, Spook, Yui’s friend invited us to his place. All of seventeen of us fitted on the two by two meter room he has. The next day was Sora’s birthday, so we head back to SM North the very morning for her and to her place.
Sixth Vial:
My GF and I went to her training then we head to Megamall were everyone was waiting. It was RJ’s Birthday and we greeted him. After few hours altogether they went to his place leaving us behind. I felt a hidden agenda from my hunch, but well, we went to Galas instead and drank with Shawn instead, unraveling some revelations that weren’t pleasant though. That very Tuesday I return to his place and got a little disturbed by his investigation results. The results were exactly contrasting my GF’s investigation, as she told me the next Thrusday. Now I have a doubt and the feeling of unworthiness, uneasiness and faithlessness building inside my temple. What made me felt this way?
Seventh Vial:
Till this very day uneasiness lurks beside my shadows as I went to Shawn’s place that Sabbath. Then we went to Megamall and meet up with the rest of the community people. The very detestable of people were there too, but didn’t hang for long, and that includes the Heretic Priest and one of the two people that that ruined my life force three years ago. As the night grows old, we went to VJ’s place for a drink with some of the TIGAS people. The next day we parted ways, I need to go home.
By the Fifth Sabbath I have heard news that the folks that ruined my life would be organizing a massive event at August. That was next month already. The Core of Dark Arts has returned from the shallow graves of Hades. And I also smell this certain hidden agenda just for me, or it was just me? I don’t know if my hunch was correct that they are preparing a dish just for me, like inviting the Christian concept of a diabolical creature just to bring me down again for good (or evil), putting me into spotlight and removing the very epicenter of my soul. Those people from the past that would place malice in every step I take. I don’t want to remember them, I don’t want to see them but they are just right in front of me, and they may laugh sarcastically, tearing out my reputation and dignity. And that would happen next month… they are the organizers and they have the power to do everything.
This problem of mine is deeply psychological, maybe I got traumatize because of their abuses towards me. My expressions were very exaggerated as I know it, because of the pain they brought to me in the past three years were digging into the very foundations of my sanity. Now there were two things left to be proven: JV’s Realism and Shawn’s Idealism. Two opposing point of views and me got stuck in between.
JV would be right if no one would save me from drowning when I was put into spotlight. If he would be right, then I will never trust again.
Shawn would be correct if he or somebody jumps in to save me. If he does, maybe I should think more positively.
These options were waiting for me to choose till that very day.
7:50 AM ...another day has ended.
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