Sunday, March 26, 2006
Breaking the Cocoon's Shell
Mood: 
I have been living in this nutshell for how many years and I must break this sooner or later. I have been suffering from this hatred that runs through my veins for my whole lifetime and yet it needs to be removed...
She has been active again recently, telling off about her newly installed DSL connection. Yeah, I mean the Childish Brat that I have mentioned in the past post. It got me irritated, I don't know why. I have this certain feeling of calmness and yet the essence of my retribution is still there. I cannot even understand myself anymore... It's just my will of revenge, nothing more.
It seems it is uncontrollable, but I must work on this. Shawn pinpointed on me that that's a thing of the past and I have to move on with it. Nash told me that the origin of my misery is my own selfishness and I must remove this thoroughly. Plus I have to be happy about the simplest of pleasures life has given to me, to work without anything to expect in return. I cannot fully understand this until she told me about the laws of Karma. As a non-believer of the word 'destiny' I often associated it with Karma, because I am a skeptic but hey, it seems to work on my way recently. I must learn to forget my skepticism, maybe a half of it. I have always asking for the truth and evidence. And also I never survive the day Morbid put up a sermon on me. How loving he was. He pointed out the things I must do: Stay calm, keep cool and do things sincerely. Yeah, I find it real hard to move out from the shell of hatred this life has given me, and hopefully I could get over with the past. What matters more for them is to me to think for what the hell is going on today. It is really difficult... getting over. Still I am on the stage of recovery.
Last Sabbath, I was invited to join with Louis or Shockwave in his place. Many of us was able to make it. We should be doing the swimming in Noey's place but it was all of the sudden that her parents cannot agree with. I met new people, or let just say the most of the Drummania addicts at the other side of Gamer Clan. The most annoying yet happy to be with guy is Andrew, also a famous guy inside the Forums. We have enjoyed the night swimming. The problem is we don't have any food or drinks (man, we love to get drunk....), unfortunately we are out of budget, what we can only afford is to buy food and stuffs.
The worst case scenario happened. There were another set of companies aside from us which was Louis' classmates. They were all drunk and someone lost his cell phone. And we heard that some of them put the blame upon us. Fuck, like we have of intention of doing it. And one of them even threatens us with such provoking words. Keeping in mind that those guys are conios and they might bring back guns and rest backs, we still want to remain just to show them that the accusations were wrong. Karl suggested the right move to call an elder so Louis calls his mom and investigated us. She told us to find the lost phone and ordered us to leave ASAP. We even have our bags checked. But in my opinion, no one of us would take other's belongings. This was the other side's fault, not ours. Why would someone leave a precious accessory at such place?
Sermons and more sermons. I have learned that I cannot trust anyone anymore... especially a person that you have trusted so much have an intention of hurting you just to build a perfect godlike being. Am I intended to be a GOD? I don't understand, Nash told me that I am almost perfect, duh... but to hell with it. Maybe I am a better Jesus Christ after all. I should admit I am supposed to be a god. Equal trade: My past and my trust for a new me. There goes my tripping... from Jen Shinrai. How to make a Tainted Purple Cock-tail. 
How to make a Tainted Purple |
Ingredients:
1 part competetiveness
5 parts courage
5 parts joy |
Method: Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add a little curiosity if desired! |
Starting next week, I'll be living with Shiela near Nash's. So you cannot contact me at home. Anyways there is my cellular to get connected with.
That's it for now. To Hell with Vatican.
11:57 PM ...another day has ended.
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Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Melancholic Journey
Mood: 
After the "Mad Season"....
Sorrow comes.
Good thing, I was able to make it the next day to the event at PUP. Shobe, a friend of mine called in before the day and she was interested with my Ragnarok Online item. That was the +7 Angel Helm that I have gained as a prize last year during the Hero Convention and she said she'll buy it from me for PHP 500.00, although I could get it as much as 2K. She have become my financial assistant the next day.
We have met up at the mall near my residence, at the Sta. Lucia East Grand Mall, then we proceeded immediately to met up with Shawn. She Also offered me a job at an internet cafe that I immediately aggreed with. After arriving, Shawn and I discussed the things about the underground cosplay group I was creating and some sort of things. Then afterwards, Nash arrive with Ashley and we head straight to PUP. We almost got lost though but we still make it there.
Finally we arrived at the campus then take a little rest then I have met the familiar people outside the stage where the event was taking place. There was Karl, Waloz, and the rest including the Childish Brat. Well I tend to ignore her however. Damn, I couldn't get in. They require a hundred bucks just to see the cosplay, and that's the only thing everyone were looking forward to. Then Shobe said she needs to get home so I sent her home, then afterwards, Nash and Ashley follows. Good thing, I have met Clyne (Shido for some) and I have invited him to the underground. He said he have done it before, that role. Precisely, wht I need. ^^ The cosplay catwalk is finished and everyone got out to feed themselves. After the break, it was the band's time to rise. Several bands play, including the Dou Ahou, which was the crowd's fave. We slammed all the way, have fun. Too bad I can't do body slams, my legs are weaken already due to work outs. After band and the announcement of the winners, the event was disbaned immediately. We came with Noey for she offer us a ride. We stepped down by SM Centerpoint and we head to Galas. I was with Yui, Luna, Aren, Waloz, and Karl. Then we waited at Karl's place for Shawn and the others to show up. Luna met up with Kreame, and fortunately, Markel came with Noel and RM. Noel treat us to drink as he promised.
We played DotA, thanks to Aren for treating me. Then when everyone's ready and the place is set, we began to drink. Kreame and Luna talks about wierd things that made us amused. We drink till we all passed out. Another young night to remember. Then Shawn talked to me. He took me outside and we began our discussion. From my evolution to a thing that made me cried so much. While he was talking about 'it', the thing that made me cry, he was touching my face so gently... I couldn't say anymore. I don't want him to bid farewell.
The night was finished. Almost some of us were knocked out. We sent Luna and Kreame home as Yui and Karl stayed with them while Noel invited me with Markel to stay over with him the next day. We were all drunken.
After an hour reaching Noel's home, we slept together to get rid of our grogginess. And when we woke up, we eat and head to Ortigas. Megamall, Star Mall, Shangri-La. While at Shangri-La, Noel treated me to Drummania then after playing we head to Megamall. There we met up with Jade, his brother Jet, Jake, Jeff, RM and so name some few. The whole afternood we stayed at the mall, playing Drummania and Guitarfreaks, DDR and some sort of arcade games. Jake and Jeff are so fun to be with. The night has come, we need to take a rest. I got a slight hangover, though.
I don't know what would be my plans for next week. But the sure thing is, it's clamouring time. The perfect retribution. Next Sabbath, hopefully the Open Forums would be put into process to eradicate the Childish Brat and her hench that taken away my pride. As a tribute from her sins to the mighty monarch.
Fare thee well for the mean time, the night is still young. Belial was calling me...
4:04 PM ...another day has ended.
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Thursday, March 16, 2006
Mad Season
Mood: 
I feel stupid - but I know it won't last for long
I've been guessing - I coulda been guessin' wrong
You don't know me now
I kinda thought that you should somehow
Does that whole mad season got ya down...
So why ya gotta stand there
Looking like the answer now
It seems to me - you'd come around
I need you now
Do you think you can cope
You figured me out - I'm lost and I'm hopeless
Bleeding and broken - though
I've never spoken
I come undone - in this mad season
I think I have been mad already in the past days. Reminds me of a classic Matchbox 20 hit by Rob Thomas, one of my fave vocalist. Mad Season, huh? I am mad indeed...
Last Sabbath, I have been to Mega. I looked for my friends but they are not at the usual spot, the food court. What cross upon me is the Goth Girl Ace. She told me that they are at Time Zone, but as I arrive, they are not even there. Luckily, I met up with the GC's Christ Roy with Jet and told me that they are at KFC upstairs the second floor. Noel was celebrating his Birth Day by treating everyone chicken steaks, which I consider everyone's fave. As I approach them, that childish brat was visible from the door with her red-haired boy friend. She was the one of the first person to greet me, but I just ignored her. Still getting rid of the aftertaste she have left behind a week ago. Then I sat beside in front of Jade. Almost everyone was there. Noel handed me my chicken steak but I was about to refuse. I was on a hurry. But he insisted me to eat it for him because of his birth day. So I devoured it immediately. Kinori also set foot inside KFC and handed me her debts of PHP 200.00. I was so happy and she also handed me my High Priest costume. Then afterwards, I left without telling the majority.
I head to Nash's school and met up with her. Together with Ashley we have gone to Shawn's place and hang out with him, with Ivan and Vincent. After the two girls left and after Shawn surfed the net, he sent me home, for he sees that I was tired already.
Manic Monday, I feel very stupid enough, as I ask a friend if she knows how to kiss and I asks her if I could give a try. At first she refused but the second time she allowed me. After looking for a place, we began kissing. Damn. I don't know if I was possessed by an incubus but my hand have gone anywhere else. After the trick, I apologize to her but she said it was OK. I feel so guilty at that time. Later in the night, while we were treking a park, I asks her if she could be my girlfriend. She told me it was OK. We have no special reason why we have gone in this relationship. I don't even feel a single heartbeat towards her. Maybe I could use this in the future, as I know it will unfold something for her. But still a question is lingering inside my head: Why would I ask someone to become my girlfriends without feeling anything from her? Maybe I should hold on till we met and end it. Or do must I?
Maybe it's just my libido rush...
Currently I am on marathon mode in watching Trinity Blood. I need to get the information about the characters that I could use in the future. My dad always scrutinize my way of using his office laptop. If we have a PC at home, probably every task of mine is done already...
Speaking of madness. Did you know that GMA-7 will air Crhno Crusade? Damn, JV always tells me that anime talks about the dominance of (the Christian concept of) demons and blasphemies towards the Vatican or even at 'god'. I myself is a Satanist but I would not even dare to disrespect other people's belief. But they would air an antichristian anime at an already morally corrupted, disrupted value, catholic country? And they are claiming themselves a Christian too... now who am I to believe in? JV also told me that there is another way to make it sanitize, and that is to change the name of 'god' or changing the theme. The problem is it would remove the real essence of the anime. Sigh. I really hate that TV station, and for those peeps out there, you can check my journals in Deviant Art or just right straight here. You can google my whole journal page in DA to see some fragments of my rants against them. After that, be enlighten with my mental anal probing, tee-hee. 
Hey don't get me wrong. I am a Satanist myself and I am just concern with the 'Christian' peeps out there. I still respect you guys. Just telling off what is my opinion. Go ahead sue me.
Sigh... I wonder if I could go this Sabbath at PUP. Nash and a lot of others expected me to go there. I need two hundered bucks and I am OK. Damn entrance fees...
3:58 PM ...another day has ended.
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Friday, March 10, 2006
Getting Rid of the Aftertaste
Mood: 
Few days later since that selfish brat insulted and damaged my pride, I still have to recover from her lousy schemes... I don't know if that childish brat is doing things intentionally just to dismay me and put all my efforts futile. I am partially OK now, just getting rid of the aftertaste that she left behind. It has be almost been four months since she ignore my efforts. Acting like she saw nothing about the things I have done not just for her, but for the whole TRC cosplay group. I felt that I have been used by some of the members. I still couldn't find it forgivable. Now I have to let go of it.
I need a new life.
The other day, I have read a blog from friend and criticized my actions. I felt like I have been punched straight to the stomach. I immediately called him confirming the actions I have done and apologizing "What have I done wrong to you? Do you have any grudges against me?" He explained that he can't look after us anymore because of of his job as a marshall, and he don't have anything against me. But he advised me not to destroy the family our friends brought together. That was the Gamer Clan. I have finally realize my mistakes. All of these days, I have thought of myself as an antagonist. An Enmity that will wreak havoc everything. I have even compared myself to the blacklisted people from the community. And I must not barge in in other people's affair, and even think of the past things that some evil people have done to me. I must move on. And that what I am doing right now. Thanks to him, I felt unburndened. I realized my flaws. I will be perfect someday, I will be a god. I have to change my sigs in GC too, they have another malicious meanings kasi eh.
Pilyo ko talaga...
Yesterday, I have began lookng for a job. Using a number from Jobstreet.com, seaching for a vacant graphics artist position, I dialled the number and able to find the location accessibly. It was located near Shawn's place at the Welcome Rotonda. After the interview and an hour of enhancing the image of a local sexy star, the head artist asked me how much the salary I want, stating the fact that I came from the distant Antipolo. I let him choose and told me that they will call me, because they are still looking and if they have chosen me, then that would be find. I hope luck is on my side, regardless of my belief in destiny.
Afterwards, I met up with Shiela and Nash near Nash's school along the Quezon Ave. And I found out that Nash is alrady pissed of with Shiela by making herself heard in peculiar way (nagpaparinig). And always saying that "Oh! Tessa's cute" or "Oh! Elise is cute!". Nash finally blows up, "How could you compare me to those worthless girls?" Then after sending Nash home, I talked to Shiela about the stuff she ought to know. I told her that if she continues to stay like that she would end up hurting herself. Her problem is that she couldn't say what's inside her mind, fearing that she might hurt others. I have just gotten over that thing long time ago, kaya ang ang kapal ng mukha ko eh. After spending time in Intramuros, I got home, tired and worn from the muscle pains. How about doing 25 chest push ups and 50 crunches since the other day? They are still aching until today. Ugh...
Tommorow, another day of Sabath. Bloody Sabath. Whatever. That childish brat might show up. I'll ignore her. I need to control my damn temperament too.
6:51 PM ...another day has ended.
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Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Withered Bloom
Mood: 
Di ko maipaliwanag. Basta noong pagising ko last Saturday, iba ang pakiramdam ko. Titingin ako sa salamin mapapasabi na lang ako ng "Shit! Ang ganda ko ngayon!!" Di naman ako bakla or silahis pero iba talaga ang pakiramdam ko sa sarili ko. Blooming ako noon. Wierd no? Hindi maipaliwanag na kasiyahan kasi sa wakas makikita ko na ulit ang mga barkada ko. Another day of Sabbath has began.
Kaya tanghali pa lang pumunta na ako sa Mega para kitain si Kinori para sa bayad niya sa renta. Nandun na rin sila Karl, Deki, Ate Noey, Jacob at Ella. Papunta na sila sa G4 para sa M4. Medyo matagal ang paghihintay ko kay Kinori pero buti na lang nakarating siya ngunti PHP 100 lang ang ibinayad niya. Sabi niya na kunin ko na lang kay Anbu yung dagdag. Tapos noon, nakita ko sila Noel, Elise at si Jeff. Kilala ni Noel si Anbu kaya sumabay na ako sa kanila. Di ko pa kasi siya nakikita. Kaya ayun nagkakita kaming lahat sa G4. Umakyat kami sa Timezone para makita kung sino sino na ang mga nandun. Tapos isa isa na silang dumating. Sila Jade, Jet, Allan at ilan pa. Di ko inasahan pero si Shawn ay nandun din.Tapos nagyosi kami sa may Starbucks habang tinatanaw ang mga buildings sa Makati kasama sila Jeff at Noel.
Bumaba na kami kasi sabi daw magsisimula na ang Cosplay event. Nasa baba sila Luna, Lex, Deki at ang iba pa. Nagtatampo nga sa akin si Lex dahil di ko siya agad namukhaan. May problema kasi ako sa recognition. Sila Aaron at Ariks nandun din. Tapos nagyaya nang kumain si Karl at Chris. Treat daw ni Chris. Kaya sabay sabay kami sa KFC at kumain. Grabe ang pinaguusapan nila habang dumudulog kami... regla. Ayus.
Tapos umakyat ulit kamisa TimeZone. Nagyosi kami ulit with the usual peeps. Tapos nagsimula ang tunay na kasiyahan kahit hindi namin napanood ang cosplay. With KR, Jet, Jade, Jeff, Pedz, Cheska and Noel, nagsimula na ang bastusan namin. Panay kung ano ano na ang pinagkekwentuhan namin. Pilyo kaming lahat. Si Noel lang ang di gaanong makarelate.
Maggagabi na, at dumating rin sila Radius, Sonar at Lord Caz (nalimutan ko real name ^^;) Tapos na Drum Mania at Guitar Freaks sila. May bata nga dun na sobra sa galing, sinasamba namin siya. Tapos nandyan din si Mark na friend ni Radius. Isa pang pilyo ang taong to. Yung bang babaeng nakapink nakita niya raw ang kuyukot XD Ang saya ng kwentuhan namin. 'Blooming' pati ako. Salamat kay Morbid. Mahal ko talaga siya. Tampok pa nga ako sa gamerclan.multiply.com sa dami ng kuha ko courtesy of Ate Noey. Featured gamer ika nga. Panay pacute nga mga kuha ko eh. Panira naman si Shawn amp.
Uwian na. Sabay sabay na kaming lahat ng pahilaga. Tapos nasa MRT na kami. Nagkakakwentuhan kami about the cosplay groupings. Unconciously, nabanggit ko ang underground project na cosplay group sa mga kasama ko. Maayos naman ang naging flow ng conversation hanggang umepal at bumanat ang isang sira ulo na isip bata, nagsasabi na "gasgas na yan!!" Tangina. Buti nakayanan ko pa ring kontrolin ang galit ko sa kanya. Putangina naman, last year pa niya tinuturndown ang efforts ko tapos gagaguhin niya pa ako. Panay destructive criticisim na lang ang naririnig ko sa kanya tapos kapag nandyan ako hindi man lang niya ako napapansin na kuya-kuyahan niya. Hindi na nga niya ako ginagalang. Tangina, sa sobrang sama ng loob ko sa kanya, putsa panay parinig na lang ang ginawa ko dahil ayoko rin namang magwala. Eh eto namang si Shawn kala niya sasabog na ako, nanapaparanoid na. Anong tinigin niya sa akin, bobo upang di makontrol ang galit? Kahit papaano, nasa may boundery na ako at puputok na, na manage ko na di magalit ng sobra. Parinig lahat ng ginawa ko. Kinokonsensya ko ang hinayupak na isip bata na yan, sa mga pinaggagagawa niya sa akin at planong paghihijack niya sa costume ko. Sinira niya ang araw ko. Tangina.
Dahil medyo banas na rin ako, di ko na rin maiwasan na makapagsalita kay Karl, lahat nang nalalaman ko at naririnig tungkol sa kanya. Kahit papaano binawasan ko ang dala kong burden.
Kinabukasan, pumunta naman ako sa SM North para sumabay sa Star City. Dumating na sila Loven, Shawn, Ken at Waloz. OK nam, at least may kasama ako. Medyo natagalan si Tere at upset na si Shawn. Pero nakarating pa rin siya. Lumakad agad kami sa Star City at nagenjoy. Sumunod sa amin si Markel. First time ko na makasaya sa Viking at Ferris Wheel. Ang saya ko. Pero walang tatalo sa Grand Carousel na pinaikotikot namin ni Markel ang isang upuan dun. Hilong hilo kami sobra!! Pero ang saya. Tapos umuwi na rin kami ng mga 9 ng gabi.
Medyo upset ako kanina. Di ko nakuha kay Kinori yung kaukulan na bayad. Wala na akong pera pa. Gusto ko na sanang umiyak eh. Di siya dumating. NagPM pala siya sa akin sa GC na hindi pala siya makakapunta. Tapos nito ko lang naramdaman na pinapabayaan na pala ako ng mga magulang ko.
Parang ayoko na.
A flower that has bloomed has finally lost its beauty.
2:05 AM ...another day has ended.
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Friday, March 03, 2006
Why Alice in Wonderland?
Mood: 
I was searching on Blogskins.com ng isang blog skin na maayos. Sabi kasi ni Roy, Admin ng GC, dun daw siya kumukuha kaya eto, napagtripan ko. May nakita nga ako na blog skin ng Love Moster, yung bidang girl dun. Yun na sana ang kukunin ko kaso eh nakita ko tong isa. Medyo naintriga ako because of some expositions na naririnig ko kay Karl about this certain fairy tale. Sabi niya, si Alice ay isang psychotic, basta baliw daw kasi lahat ng nakikita niya ay di nakikita ng iba. Almost all the fairy tales daw ay may hidden meanings or may pinagmulang di kaayaya. Kasi they originated mostly as Tavern stories. Mga kwentong kalalakihan sa mga sinaunang bar, kwento na nagsimula sa inuman. Tulad ng Snow White na eto pala si Snow White ay binarurot ng mga seven drawfs or even Little Red Riding Hood na eto palang bida ay hinalay di umano ng Big Bad Wolf. Wierd pero yun ang tunay na nangyari. Originally, patay nga si Little Red Riding Hood dahil walang sumaklolo sa kanya na mangangangaso, na later idinagdag lang para kahit papaano buhay siya. Eto yung mga links na na research ko, yung isa namang link, kinikwestyon ang katinuan ni Lewis Caroll noong sinulat niya ang Alice in Wonderland.
Then Lately I have been strongly attached sa Alice in Wonderl and since then. Kahit nga isang shinigami type story na manga na Alice on Deadlines binasa ko na rin. Tapos eto pa, hindi lang pala fairy tales ang may ibigsabihin. Ultimong nursery rhymes may ibang ibigsabihin na rin. Check niyo tong link na to.
Pati mga lokal na folksongs natin ay may ibang kahulugan. Tulad ng Bahay Kubo na nagmimind set sa ating kabataan na mamuhay ng "simple" na pabor sa kahirapan. Kumpara sa I Got Two Hands na nagmimind set na ang magiging trabaho ng mga bata sa kanluran ay siguradong blue collar jobs. Tignan natin ang isang ito, Sitsiritsit. Eto ang stanzaang aking sinasabi: Mama, mama, namamangka/ Pasakayin yaring bata/ At pagdating mo sa Maynila/ Ipagpalit sa manika. Tila ang hidden meaning nito ay Child Prostitution. Ewan ko lang kung tama nga ako, pero eto ang pagkakapercieve ko. Grabe.
Kahapon, nakatambay ako sa Mega, hinihintay si Kinori dahil may hihiram ng costume ko na High Priestess. Kaya umupo muna ako at si Sylph dumating din. Hinihiram din pala ni Kinori yung costume nito na Dark Priest. Ayun dumating na nga siya, kaso sa Sabado pa yung bayad. OK lang, sabi naman niya dadagdagan na lang niya kaya pumayag ako. Dumating din si Rex, isang magaling na artist ng Ground Zero Comics. ayun tumambay rin kasama namin at dumating din si JBob. Medyo nagtagal pa kami sa Mega, at nagkwento siya ng isang napasakit na pangyayari sa buhay niya. Yung parang masaya kayo nung girl noong una tapos noong nahulog ang loob mo sa kanya, naiilang na, lumalayo na, umiiwas pa. Ang saklap, di ba? Sabi ko, nangyari na rin sa akin yung pangyayari na yan. Yung tapos mong gawin ang lahat para sa kanila at sa grupo, tila wala kang natanggap na return favor, ultimong 'thank you', wala. Saklap nga eh. Tapos noon, umuwi na kami, but before, dumaan muna kami sa Timezone at tumingin ng games. Tapos ayun, minamanyak si Lili, amf.
Wala talaga akong maisulat ng matino nagyon. Nagtitrip na naman ako. Speaking of sountrip, eto, lyrics.
Una by Spongecola
muli namang umihip sa akin
ang hangin ng pagiisa
liwanag kang dagling sumilaw
sa aking mga mata
linilingon, sinusundan
dumadalas ang minsan
ika'y naryan, abot tanaw
kahit walang dahilan
maiiwasan ba
ang bawat sandaling ika'y laman ng isip ko
(maiiwasan bang)
ngayo'y lilipas ng hindi kita nasisilayan
(magkamali sa'yo)
nararapat bang pigilan ang damdamin na
(maiiwasan bang)
lalong mahulog sa iyo
walang maitutulad sa sumpang iyong linikha
putulin man ang tali ay sadyang walang kawala
sa pagkaakit, at di paglapit
nananalangin, at umaasang
maiiwasan ba
ang bawat sandaling ika'y laman ng isip ko
(maiiwasan bang)
ngayo'y lilipas ng hindi kita nasisilayan
(magkamali sa'yo)
nararapat bang pigilan ang damdamin na
(maiiwasan bang)
lalong mahulog sa iyo
hindi padadala
hinding hindi padadala
hindi padadala
12:02 AM ...another day has ended.
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Wednesday, March 01, 2006
A New Month
Mood: 
March at last... dalawang buwan na ang nakakalipas simula noong New Year...
Ang bilis, parang kailan lang. Pero ganun pa rin, may mga baga pa rin akong gustong kalimutan pero di ko magawa. Masakit din naman kasi ang nangyari. Pakiramdam ko nagpagamit lang ako sa mga taong pinagkatiwalaan ko. Tapos anong nangyari? Wala na. parang anino na lang ako...
Yup, ilang buwan na ang ang nagdaan after sa TRC incident na yun. For those who want to know, I'll let you know some other time. Basta, parang tinabunan ako ng buhangin six feet under then kumakatok ako sa inaamag na ataul. As if I was lef behind. Buti naman may mga taong sumalo sa akin, at kung sino sino pa ang mga taong hindi ko inaasahan na makisipatya sa akin, sila pa tong nagasabi sa akin na "Ano ka ba?". Sila pa ang sumalba sa akin sa pagalis ko sa GC. May mga taong nakatingala pa pala sa akin. Akala ko wala na. Masaya ako para sa kanila. Di ko na magawang lumayo dahil sa mga taong tulad nila. Kahit gustuhin ko pa na umalis na lang...
Masaya na rin kahit papaano. Kahit nandyan ang mga taong dapat iwasan at layuan dahil sa atraso, may mga tao naman na handang sumoporta sa akin.
5:51 PM ...another day has ended.
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